thoughts on being a system

Over the last 2 years alot has changed,and we've gotten to know ourselves alot better, though I still feel like we have alot to improve upon.

we're lucky day to day isn't normally too bad,with the exception of always hearing the others,usually its fine though,and it'd be kinda weird without them at this point
as I've gotten used to having them by my side,
Whats a bigger problem is navigating our life and making bigger decistions,we usually tend to bicker alot on these kinda things,and I honestly wonder if I'm the right one to run the show,as I've only been the host for 2 years at this point,and i feels likeI've got nothing done
even if that may not be obectivly true,it feels like I've wasted my time here
and yet I wish I got the chance to host when the body was alittle younger so I might have had a chance to be alittle bit more mature when we had to start dealing with collage,or HRT

still glad I've been the one to host for these 2 years,even if it could have gone better,or I could have been more "efficient" with my time